so it has been a long time scince i updated and alot has gone on i hope that you all had a good christmas and a awsome new year. I have alot of thing i want to do during this new year.I want to be myself more be nice to people that i dont like and just be the person im supposed to. I love you all so much

Ryan

Today was one of the most amazing and sad days ever. Today I had to let go and say goodbye to someone very dear to my heart. This was not an easy task to let go and realize God needed him more. It was one of the toughest things to walk by the casket today at the graveside service and pay my final respects to a man that I feel honored to have been able to call my friend. This man touched me so deeply and helped me so much in learning what living youre faith is all about. This man was Jared Cheek. I met Jared 2 years ago at camp, and he made such a profound impact on me. we had a great talk and i whopped him in a game of knockout. I would email Jared occasonaly to check in with him and see how he was doing. He would do the same. Jared was someone you could always talk to. He had so much love for everyone and just being around him made you feel so good. It didnt matter how long you had known him you he would love you like you were his best friend. Jared gave of himself giving up his time for 5 summers to work at camp and even after his death he is continuing to give he donated 8 organs and saved 8 lives. This empitimises the way Jared was always willing to help you if you needed it and always willing to give up his time and energy to talk to you about stuff you were struggling with. Jared loved Christ and let everyone know how proud he was of his faith and always wanting to share it with others. Today as i walked past his casket for the last time and payed my final respects. I realized that it is our job to carry on his legacy and to follow in his footsteps and to live life as a true follower of Christ as Jared did and to not be afraid to let people know that we do believe and God and how awsome of a gift faith is.... i now have a song i would like to share with you all its amazing .....

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Who can say if I've been changed for the better

becuase i knew you

I have been changed for good

im excited for tonite cause its monday night and you guys kno what that means.

Love,

Ryan

so ya last night was amazing.... church then yg. Youth group was fun besides the survivor food game which basicly made me dry heave like 17 million times in front of everyone  it wasnt that bad. Well atleast nuthin compared to sopmore retreat last year. ya that want fun neways. Youth group was awsome besides that we talked about like having a fresh start and like starting the school year of right so it was good well i g2g 

much love

Ryan

so wow like what a week it has been like idk its been so amazing. Ive gotten so much closer to some people, and like its just amazing. Im kinda excited for school to start cause i will get to see everyone again and stuff, but im not ready for the work. This year is going to be so hard and stuff, but at the same time so much fun. Im kinda hungry so i think im gunna go make some eggs. Then to church at 930. Then Youth group at 600 then who knows. Call me if nething is going on tonite or if you just want to talk.

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I love you all more that words can comprehend

Ryan

Look into my eyes - you will see What you mean to me Search your heart - search your soul And when you find me there you'll search no more Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you Look into my heart - you will find There's nothin' there to hide Take me as I am - take my life I would give it all I would sacrifice Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for I can't help it there's nothin' I want more Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you There's no love - like your love And no other - could give more love There's nowhere - unless you're there All the time - all the way Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for I can't help it there's nothin' I want more I would fight for you - I'd lie for you Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you what an amazing song. Dontcha Think?